Grace In the Face of Defeat

Hi friends...it's Karen again, catching you up on my very long journey on this road called life.

I have been trying not to get caught up in self-doubt and forced timelines because I now know who I am in Christ and believe very much in the promises God gave to me, until I get caught up in self-doubt and forced timelines. Setting goals is a good thing because it forces you to be intentional with your time and resources instead of wondering aimlessly in a sea of spontaneity; and when you achieve them, there is no better feeling. Today however, I am feeling very messy and overwhelmed with all the things I thought would have already been completed but is not even close to what I imagined it could/would be! All of these balls in the air threatening to fall to the ground in haste with no clue how to stop it is in part, a making of my own doing (sigh).

Then I read something today that talked about celebrating the small wins and while I sit here trying to come up with something to celebrate, I am constantly reminded of this passage:

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future Jeremiah 29:11

I have backup and I know this! The "long but not forever" Montra sings in my head daily so how do I get out of my own way? I really do feel the thing I've been asking for so long is literally around the corner and the only delay lies with my belief in receiving it...to call it as if it were, is no small feat especially when surrounded by negativity (real or imagined) and presented alternatives that try to talk you out of what you know to be true.

However, prayer is everything and Grace is defined as God's love itself so with those two things in my arsenal, I can't lose! What I keep forgetting is that His plan for my life is so much better than my own and in order to receive His peace in my journey, I must reject the comparisons made, the fear of the unknown and the tendencies to travel my own path.

It's a daily struggle to remember those things, but a battle worth fighting to the end.

Talk to you next time and until then be blessed in all you do! ❤️