Paper Thin

Hello friends, it's me Karen.

My March was a tornado, and my April is shaping up to be a sequel!

Don't get me wrong, it has been good things just a lot of it all at once with what seems to be no end in sight leaving me to wonder if saying yes to a few of them was the right thing to do in the first place......(sigh).

One thing in particular has always been on my "list of things to do" and when I was approached to join the team, excitement was on overload. I couldn't believe my luck and I instantly wanted to jump right in, but I said to myself...

Self, slow your role! Your plate is already looking crowded, do you really want to take this on now? Do yourself a favor and pray on it.

...and I did just that. But I'm not so confident that the "yes" I heard came from God and not my ego. Many times, I've made decisions and asked God to bless it instead of asking and waiting for the answer. I am wondering if this is one of those times because these days, I'm feeling paper thin (the translucent kind) and one more tug will completely rip me in half!

I listen to spiritual podcasts and daily affirmations, and I came across one titled Stop Worrying! This Is the Confirmation You Needed! It spoke about strengthening your relationship with God so that you can increase your faith in His ability to turn it all around to your benefit and his Glory. Not because you've done anything worthy but just because of how much He loves you...in spite of you. I think constantly about how far I've come from where I started, and I can't help but give thanks for how faithful He has been to me even when I wasn't. The best part is that He doesn't even hold it against me!

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

The one thing I can be sure about is that the inspiration to create and the talent needed to bring it to life doesn't come from me. Left to my own devices, nothing would be finished...but God. I've tried many times to walk away from this journey and many more times I've returned, which just confirms to me that this is my fate. Long but not forever is my new position in life as He continues to make a way where there is no way. He truly is the finisher of my destiny and no matter the struggle I see before me or the tiredness I feel in my body He has made it clear that this is my time, and I will overcome and witness His promise to me.

Stay tuned for big things are on the Horizen!

Be blessed in all you do 💕